[One moment in time]

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ
In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and Merciful

Our iman is just like a sinusoidal graph. Always be up and down. Sometimes I want to cry on the sajadah and hug Al-Quran for a long period but sometimes I’m too busy with assignments (I guess..) or get busy with internet or spend my leisure times on d lovely bed? Oh,Allah. I miss that moment. When I feel so hurt and no one seems to care or understand me. The only way that makes me feel better is crying when sujud in solah and praying to You. Tell You all the things in my heart even You already know everything in or out. It really helps me to let go all the unnecessary feelings that be the burden inside. I miss that moment very much when I feel the sense of belonging when I’m enter Your house. No one afford to buy the serenity and calmness even with millions or trillions of money. Money can’t just easily buy everything right? I feel like being surrounded by all the positive charges.. so it will balance with negative charges in me. I can’t even put it into words how much I miss that moment now..

Current emotion- I miss Masjid Muadzam Shah.. :’(

Note: For my all frens who always be there besides me…
*I’m sorry..truly sorry..

[ Aku dan Hatiku ]

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ
In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and Merciful

Saat waktu berlalu..Hambar..Aku diam membisu. .Sekadar secalit senyuman tiada rasa menemani bicara.
Ku tanyakan pada hati.

Aku: Kamu sihat?

Hati: *Sepi*

Aku: Kamu demam ya?

Hati: Hmm..mungkin (*sayup kedengaran suara itu. Tidak seceria selalu*)

Aku: Kamu semakin berubah pucat dan lesu warnamu?

Hati: *Diam*

Aku: Aku lihat kamu ada simptom penyakit hati. (*merenung jauh cuba untuk menyelami dasar hati*)

Hati: Aku rasa semakin lemah ..Kabur. .Tolong..(*lemah suara itu*)

Aku: Aduhai,hatiku..takkan ku biarkan engkau terus sakit dan mati. Mungkin ada debu yang tersalut tidak dibersihkan. Mungkin juga ada calar yang semakin pedih dan tidak dirawat. Duhai hatiku, usah terus begini. Aku rindu pada bisikanmu yang selalu berceloteh itu ini. Aku rindu pada kata tegasmu menyedarkan aku untuk terus pandang ke depan tanpa menoleh hitam pekat jalan yang ditinggalkan. Aku rindu tiupan semangat darimu saat aku merasa lelah dan penat dengan keadaan sedangkan perjalananku masih jauh. Aku rindu untuk membiarkan manik-manik jernih menitis saat aku mengadu segalanya pada Dia.Sungguh..aku rindu saat itu..Hati..tolong jangan mati lagi..(*sayu*)

Hati:Rawatlah aku..aku juga tidak ingin mati lagi..bersihkan aku..ubatilah aku..

Aku: Bertahanlah wahai hati..aku akan segera pergi mencari ubatmu..tunggu aku kembali..(*berlari pergi.*)

[Look there!My butterfly flying high at the sky]

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ
In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and Merciful

I let all the dreams went away

Blew by the wind
As I realized who am I
When the sky was so blue and high
And I about to cry
Owh, my butterfly
I can’t pretend these tears
Aren’t over flowing steadily
I can’t prevent these hurts from
Almost over taking me
I can’t faking these smiles
Or put on a happy mask all day
But now I know
For you’ll never be mine
I’ll stand and say goodbye
Lets fly away so high
As high as hopes I pray
For you who has become a butterfly
Spread your wings and start to fly!!

Note for wardah- HE knows what the best for you!!Alhamdulillah..

[ Perjalanan Mencari Diri ]

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ
In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and Merciful

Salam muhasabah buat diriku.
lama benar aku menyepi.
kataku pada hati untuk mencari diri.
apa telah ditemui??
ah,perjalananku masih jauh.
usah mudah mengalah
mengaku anak Melayu:
‘ Pantang berundur sebelum berjuang’
hmm,hidup ini kan satu perjuangan.
teringatku pada seuntai kata:
selangkah ke alam perjuangan bererti
selamanya dalam ujian
biarlah menangis, kecewa dan terluka
bila disapa onak duri sepanjang perjalanan
itu lebih indah daripada mati terkambus tanpa mujahadah
kita tidak sanggup selamanya terluka
tapi ingatlah,
setiap darah dan air mata itulah mahar kita ke syurga
bila ditanya kenapa berjuang itu pahit?
Jawabnya kerana syurga itu manis
Ibarat menyapu ubat pada luka
Pedih, tetapi cepat sembuhnya.

Pesanan buat hati: Moga sentiasa tabah dalam perjuangan hidup kerna telah ku pilih jalanMu.

[A Piece of Mind: A Reminder For Me+Myself+MyHeart ]

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ
In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and Merciful

My dear Wardah,
The day will come when you will review your life and be thankful for every minute of it, every hurt, every sorrow, every joy and every moment of your life will be a treasure.
So, please keep in your heart n mind:
ACCEPT of what you are and CHANGE what you can!!
THINK before you act and NOT REGRET any moment of carelessness!!
APPRECIATE what you have and the WONDERFUL person you are!!
ENJOY the simple pleasures of life, nature and in people!!
FORGIVE mistakes and FORGET the fear in past!!
LEARN and DISCOVER new experiences and take life as an adventure!!
DREAM and PLAN for your future!!
DO THE BEST FOR WHAT YOU WANT!!!!

[Ana Uhibbukum Fillah ]

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيم

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and Merciful

Salam mahabbah pembuka bicara,
Buat kalian yang ku sayang,
Ada ketika mata silap memandang,
Telinga salah mendengar,
Lidah terlanjur berkata,
Fikiran khilaf menafsir,
Hati silap menduga,
Mohon maaf atas segalanya,
Halalkan makan,minum,ilmu dan budi yang disemaikan,
Seuntai kasih buatmu kerana sabar dengan karenahku,
Seuntai kasih buatmu kerana selalu mendengar celotehku,
Seuntai kasih buatmu kerana tidak pernah jemu mengingatkan tanggungjawabku sebagai hamba Allah,
Seuntai kasih buatmu atas sokongan dan semarak semangat padaku,
Syukurku yang tidak terhingga atas kasih sayang yang dicurahkan,
Ya Allah ku mohon padaMu,
Titipkanlah kasih sayangMu kepada kami agar ikatan ukhwah ini terus terjalin,
Tetapkanlah hati kami agar terus berada di jalan yang diredhaiMu,
Tunjukkanlah yang salah itu salah dan berilah kami kekuatan untuk menjauhinya,
Dan tunjukkanlah yang benar itu benar dan berilah kami kekuatan untuk mengikutinya.

‘Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui’
[surah Al-Baqarah:216]

[ Fairytale vs Reality ]

'When I was just a little girl

My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story

It always was about a Princess in distress

And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory

I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be

Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me

I don't wanna be like Cinderella sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar waiting for somebody to come and set me free

I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting for a handsome prince to come and save me on a horse of white unless we're riding side by side

Don't want to depend on no-one else I'd rather rescue myself

Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind

Who's not afraid to show that he loves me.taking care of me

I will be there for him just as strong as he will be there for me

When I give myself then it has got to be an equal thing

I can slay my own dragon.I can dream, my own dreams

My knight in shining armour is me

So I'm gonna set me free!!!!'

What a meaningful and motivational lyrics and I like this song[“,]. ‘Cinderella’ sang by Tata Young but then for sure I am not a Cinderella k!!*wink*.So, don’t come close to me if later you just passed by, don’t pretend to be nice with me if later you just let me cry and don’t ever come to my life if later you just walk away without a reason why? I refused to be discouraged or downhearted because I have Allah and because of Him, I am alive.